The ceiling in the dark is as boring as in the daylight.

A light is hanging.

But not turned on.

Can't see clearly.

Xie Xi only knew that before I returned to the Xie family, there was an unpleasant name, only knew that I ranked third in my foster parents' home, with two older sisters, three younger sisters, and one younger brother.

But she didn't know that in the first eighteen years of my life, I had been married.

With her life experience, she probably couldn't understand what that meant.

Perhaps in her eyes, getting married is like her and Qi Zhao, falling in love and naturally getting married.

Love to a certain extent, get married, have children, and build a new family together.

But not for me.

I was chained in a small room.

Conceiving, miscarrying, or giving birth.

That man paid twenty thousand as a "bride price" to get me from my foster mother.

So I became his possession.

The mountain people didn't have the concept of getting a marriage certificate, they just set up a few tables of alcohol as a wedding.

No wedding dress, no blessings.

Only that man with yellow teeth approaching me.

I ran away from the marriage.

But couldn't escape.

After the failed escape, I lost the chance to become my foster mother.

I was locked in a dark room, eating pig feed, the only thing I could see was that man.

Time was hard to distinguish in the darkness.

I forgot how long it had been.

Things I could do disappeared.

In the end, only conceiving, miscarrying, or giving birth.

The first child I killed was a boy.

The day he was born, the man unprecedentedly let me out.

He gently held the noisy flesh in his arms, like a good father: "Son, I have a son, the Wang family has a descendant!"

The smell of blood was heavy under the blanket, I quietly watched, tugged at the corner of my mouth, revealing an ugly smile.

It was the first time the man realized I was a person.

He stuffed the child into my arms.

As if wanting me to feel the warmth of life.

I held the child tightly, staring at the face that was somewhat similar to mine.

The next day, the man went out to work, I picked up the lump of flesh lying on the bed.

He waved his arms and smiled at me.

I smiled back at him.

Then, my gaze fell on his neck.

Unfortunately, he caught me looking as he came back to pick up something he dropped.

He let out a painful cry, calling out "son" repeatedly, he grabbed my head and slammed me against the wall, his fists hitting hard.

I saw the sunlight outside the door that was not closed properly.

Next time, I can't be so obvious.

I should make it look like an accident.

Or...

I struggled to open my eyes and memorized the man's appearance—

Take care of him as well.

It was probably a miracle that I survived.

I learned to obey, he thought I had been beaten into submission, and relaxed his supervision of me.

So, on a sunny afternoon, after finishing lunch, the man fell into a permanent sleep.

I ended nearly three years of captivity.

Later, I met her.

Xie Xi was asleep.

I gently touched her cheek.

She wouldn't know what kind of evil person she brought back.

She wouldn't know the dark thoughts I had.

She would never know.