I would rather he not love me, or want him to love me, especially if it has anything to do with her, even if it's just a tiny bit.

Ever since Shen Nianxiao came back six months ago, when we were intimate, he called me "Xiaoxiao."

Every time I heard it, I felt a little bit nauseous.

He thought he could deceive people, but I've lived by his side for so many years. Even if he just changed the position of his hair today, I could tell right away.

Moreover, someone who has never posted on social media has posted several times in the past half year, and the frequency of coming home and the rapid updates of the closet have been decreasing.

When I first found out, it was truly heart-wrenching, but later, hatred overshadowed the love.

Gu Jinan once pulled me out of the abyss, but now, he has personally stuffed those terrible memories back into my mind.

The mastermind who bullied me was Shen Nianxiao.

Just because the person she liked said a few words to me, which led to a six-month-long bullying of me.

The darkness of my youth occasionally emerges and strikes me heavily.

But Gu Jinan, why? Why is it her?

While I believed in your love, you used actions to tell me that those moments of love for me were just a facade of lies.

So this time, I don't want to spoil you anymore, I don't want you completely.

Before not wanting you, I must first make you disgusted with Shen Nianxiao.

In the evening, I prepared a nutritious meal for him as usual, and he came home as expected.

He wrapped his arms around my waist, and his warm breath sprayed on my neck, "Wife, what did you cook for me?"

I picked up a meat roll, stuffed it into his mouth, and said in a complaining tone, "Who asked you to cook for me~"

He straightened my body, spoiled and pinched my face, "I knew it, you, the jealous queen, must be jealous~"

He said as he gently stroked my nose with his. Before his next move, I broke free from his restraint and put the meat roll on the table.

He stood with his hands on his waist, helplessly smiling, with a hint of indulgence in his smile, and his affectionate eyes were captivating.

I admit, Gu Jinan is indeed a hot commodity, both in appearance and personal ability.

I stared at him for two seconds, then quickly walked up to him, stood on tiptoe and kissed him, not forgetting to keep my hands busy.

He was stunned for two seconds, then realized, and made a fiercer response.

I know Gu Jinan enjoys this feeling that I can't leave him.

He likes my unreserved love and indulgence of him. Every time we quarrel, I get angry, but after being angry, I will still seek comfort in his arms like a pet cat.

Because I know that if the cat is unruly, it will be thrown away, and he will have a new pet cat.

In our first year together, because of his secretary, who constantly did some ambiguous things with him, I was too concerned about him at that time.

I had a few arguments with him. I remember that on a rainy night, I dropped the water cup that the secretary gave him.

He sternly told me, "Lu Chuxiao, if you keep causing trouble, I will immediately find someone to replace you, believe it or not?"

Later, he ignored me for three days, and I was very afraid of losing him, so I apologized to him.

He helplessly rubbed my hair, hugged me tightly.

I firmly believed that as long as I yielded, he would come around, and he would still show his love to me.

What kind of harm in love is the most painful? Lifting you up to the clouds and then pulling away, the roller coaster-like thrill, even if this person doesn't love you, it's hard to bear.

Before destruction is revelry.

Half an hour later, Gu Jinan held me into the bathroom, and the mist was everywhere. He said in my ear, "Xiaoxiao, I love you so much."

Before, I would have been ecstatic to hear that, but now, the only thing I feel is disgust.