I don't know when it started, but I developed a different kind of feeling towards Shen Qianjin. My diary gradually filled with entries about her. I started to care about her more, not just as a friend.

I began to feel abnormal. Whenever I zoned out, I would find myself staring at Shen Qianjin's lips, imagining they must be soft and good to kiss...

I slapped my own head hard. I started brainwashing myself: How could I have such thoughts? Something must be wrong with me!

I tried looking at handsome guys online to correct these thoughts, but all I could see in my mind were various images of Shen Qianjin. She smiled at me, called me "potato," acted cute towards me...

I started searching online: "Is it normal for a girl to like another girl?"

The most liked response was: "It's normal. I love her as a person, not just her reproductive organs!"

I slowly began to understand that besides heterosexual relationships, there is also homosexuality in the world.

I like her, but I dare not confess my feelings. I'm afraid she'll think I'm a freak. So, I decided to keep these emotions buried in my heart. It's enough for me to know.

In November, the first snow of 2006 fell in Beilin City. I stood by the glass window, watching the snowflakes fall and melt on the windowpane. As the snowfall intensified, my eyes lit up.

I gazed at the snow outside and said, "It's my first time seeing real snow. It's so beautiful!"

Shen Qianjin responded, taking over my words, "Haven't people from the south seen snow before?"

"No!"

As the snowfall grew heavier, my excitement increased. "It's so beautiful! I want to bury myself in the snow right now!"

"Shen Qianjin, come play in the snow with me!"

Shen Qianjin hesitated but eventually agreed, "It's freezing cold, but fine, I'll come."

I hopped into the snow like a rabbit.

I scooped up a handful of snow and threw it into the air.

"It's just like the poetic scene 'Willow catkins dancing in the wind.'"

...

That night, while gossiping in the dark dormitory, Xiaotao suddenly brought up Shen Qianjin.

I was almost falling asleep, but when I heard Shen Qianjin's name, I suddenly felt wide awake.

Xiaotao said, "Have you noticed that President Shen doesn't seem as fierce as before?"

Another roommate from the student council nodded, "Yeah! She seems like a completely different person lately!"

Suddenly, Xiaotao looked at me and said, "And I've noticed that she treats Xiaoweimei differently too!"

Another roommate added, "Yeah! It's not just different; it's like night and day when she's with Yumei versus when she's with us!"

Xiaotao said, "Exactly! One second she's criticizing us, but when she sees Yumei, it's like she's looking at a little child!"

"Maybe women who act coquettishly have the best luck!"