"Let's break up." I sent a text message to Xu Li.

Xu Li didn't reply immediately, it was still early, he should be with Lu Yan checking her health!

Without waiting for him, I started packing my things.

As I was almost done packing, Xu Li called, and the first thing he said was:

"Sun Yun, what are you causing a scene for again?"

"Just because I accompanied Lu Yan to the hospital? But her health is not good, it was just once or twice, can't you give in to her?"

"Moreover, we are about to get married soon, both sets of parents have met, how will they see it if you bring up a breakup now?"

His voice was full of impatience.

I listened quietly to all he had to say, then said seriously, "I'm not causing a scene."

"Xu Li, you're just used to me, not in love with me. After all these years, I suddenly see things clearly."

"Fortunately, we haven't gotten married yet, avoiding one mistake after another. Since Lu Yan is back, go find her!"

There was a long silence on the phone. Just as I was about to hang up, Xu Li suddenly said:

"Where are you, I'll come find you."

"I'm in the new house, almost done packing. If you hurry in half an hour, I'll still be here." I couldn't resist, I gave him a time to meet.

However, there was silence on the other end of the phone again. And amidst the silence, I could hear the sounds of the hospital, the noisy machines, letting me know he was still at the hospital.

A chill ran through my heart, suddenly I understood, he couldn't come because he hadn't finished accompanying Lu Yan.

How ridiculous! His fiancée is about to break up with him, yet he hesitates for another woman.

Can this still be called love?

However, it's quite normal for Xu Li not to come for Lu Yan.

He's a busy man, aloof, hard to make plans with. Even if I wanted to meet him, I had to schedule it in advance.

But Lu Yan was an exception.

Last year, I had a minor surgery, and Xu Li happened to be on a business trip. He said it was a very important meeting and couldn't stay to accompany me. Although reluctant, I had to obediently accept.

However, on the day of the surgery, Xu Li was seen accompanying Lu Yan home.

Afterward, when I questioned him, he just impatiently explained:

"Lu Yan has a difficult family situation, going back alone might lead to trouble. Besides, didn't you say it was a minor surgery for you?"

Yes! It was a minor surgery, many people were there to accompany me, I didn't lack him.

But Lu Yan has many friends too, why did you have to be by her side when she felt uncomfortable during the check-up?

Even when your fiancée wants to break up, you can't leave her?

I remembered the fear I felt facing the surgery, waking up from anesthesia, looking around but never seeing his disappointment, remembering the shock when my girlfriends revealed Xu Li's true whereabouts.

That sense of grievance still lingers in my body.

And Lu Yan, after finding out, actually said to me privately:

"Xu Li doesn't like unreasonable women, if you still want to be with him, put away your temper."

Ha, originally it was a conflict because of her, now she's lecturing me!

However, at that time, I was probably still reluctant.

Xu Li was my senior, a dream that began when I was 18. After pursuing for so many years, finally being together, I was unwilling to let him go so easily.

But now, looking back, what's the use of this persistence?

I chuckled self-deprecatingly, preparing to hang up the phone, when Xu Li suddenly said in a suppressed voice:

"Wait for me."

In the end, Xu Li didn't make it within half an hour.

As I closed the door an hour later, the cold air seemed to mock my last bit of self-delusion.