I really had no feelings for Lu Yun.

But it's not just because of Du Tian.

Lu Yun was my senior in graduate school, we met on campus.

At that time, I had just started school, and the advisor was famous for being strict. I struggled to knock on the office door with a pile of materials, but I wasn't familiar with the advisor's habits and didn't know how to arrange so many materials.

Until a hand reached out, helped me hold the heavy books, and then took them from my hands: "Are you Shen An's junior sister? You've worked hard, I'll do it."

Lu Yun's name was well known in the department, outstanding ability, stable and composed, and also had a striking face.

He often listened to me very seriously, and then carefully gave advice. I looked into those eyes that had helped me go through countless difficult problems, and as I looked, I couldn't leave.

I was already enthusiastic and initiative, and Lu Yun was also interested. Being together was just a matter of course.

The day I graduated, Lu Yun came to my graduation ceremony wearing his work outfit, he helped me straighten out my academic gown, his hand around my waist. He softly sighed in my ear, "The same as mine."

We came from the same master, so naturally our academic gowns were the same, but I sensed something else. Looking at his well-fitted suit, I couldn't help but blurt out impulsively, "Should we wear our academic gowns together for the wedding?"

Lu Yun's eyes lit up, then he smiled and took my hand, "No, I will give you the best wedding dress."

Originally, I thought we would walk down this path peacefully, until one day when Lu Yun returned home from socializing, he wearily slumped on the sofa, his eyes showing signs of intoxication. But I heard every word he said clearly, "An An, my mom said, for us to get married, there is a condition."

"What condition?" I brought him sobering tea and sat next to him.

He avoided looking into my eyes, and his voice lowered, "Mom hopes that we can have a child first."

This was the first serious argument between Lu Yun and me.

I couldn't understand the strange customs of his hometown, nor could I understand the outlandish behavior of giving birth to a child before having a wedding.

I even thought about breaking up.

But he pleaded with me, tears fell on my wrist. He said he couldn't resist it. This was an unspoken rule in his hometown for a long time, and he just wanted to marry me.

"An An, let's just try it, okay? We don't have to give birth, just getting pregnant and we'll get married."

"An An, don't you want a future with me?"

He said that.

I still agreed.

I had to persuade myself. If we were going to be together in the end, then maybe the order of some things wasn't that important.

We prepared for a long time, and then started trying to conceive.

But each time failed.

Lu Yun began to feel anxious, and I suspected that his mother had given him great pressure again.

So, I suggested going to the hospital for a check-up.

To be safe, both of us made appointments for the check-up to ensure that nothing was overlooked.

When we came out of the hospital, I couldn't bear to look at Lu Yun's expression. With the test report in his hand, his fingers were trembling.

It was Lu Yun's problem.

He had infertility, and the doctor clearly told him that it was incurable.

In other words, he might not be able to have his own children in his lifetime.

"Maybe in the future, technology can cure it, and there will be hope..." I was somewhat at a loss, just wanting to comfort him.

Lu Yun lifted his head, with deep self-doubt in his eyes, "Are you going to leave me?"

"No." I hugged him.

For me at that time, not having children wasn't a very serious matter. On the contrary, I felt relieved. Now, his mother might not have a reason to ask me for a grandson.

I also gained freedom.

But I didn't expect that Lu Yun would put even heavier shackles on me.