The sister-in-law cried bitterly in the room.

The baby girl cried a few times and then fell silent. Soon, the smell of barbecue filled the air.

I looked at the dark lump in the fire pit.

I felt a bit scared and disgusted.

My mother asked me to take her to the back mountain to feed the wild dogs. After the wild dogs eat this dirty thing, the sister-in-law's Yin energy will naturally dissipate.

I cowered at the door and dared not go.

My mother slapped me hard on the head, spitting as she spoke.

"That madman refused to help me make a paper effigy. I had to do it myself. Useless!"

"Useless waste! If I had known, I would have drowned you in the cesspool the day you were born!"

"Worthless brat, if you don't go, believe me, I'll turn you into a paper effigy too!"

Her slap made my head ache.

There is a rule among paper effigy masters that they do not make paper effigies for the living.

I knew that well from my time with him.

Ignoring the pain in my head, I quickly picked up the dark lump and headed for the back mountain.

The bamboo pieces pierced through my body, and I couldn't imagine how painful it was.

I couldn't be turned into a paper effigy!

I vividly remember the baby girl crying her heart out.

My mother kept saying beside her, "Be good. It's not that Grandma doesn't love you, it's just that Grandma wants a grandson..."

My mother really likes boys.

I don't have any skirts. All I have are the pants and shoes my brother doesn't want. Even when my hair grows long, my mother will cut it off and sell it.

Every time, I think, it's so nice to be a boy. You can eat meat, you don't have to work in the fields, you can have your own clothes, and you can be chubby and fair-skinned.

Unlike me, who is as skinny as a monkey, with hair that looks like a dog chewed on it, and wax-yellow skin.

I didn't leave her for the wild dogs in the mountains. Instead, I dug a small hole with my hands and buried her.

I just hope she won't be reborn as a girl in her next life.

Being a girl is too hard.