When the power went out at night, I sat on the sofa and looked at the few stars in the sky.

I even counted how many stars were there.

I felt something was wrong with the three stars side by side.

I looked up and asked, "Which one of you is Chen Yaoyao, and which one is Chimu Jiang? Can't you separate a bit? Without distance, people will misunderstand."

Chimu Jiang's phone call came suddenly, disturbing the tranquility of the room.

When I answered, he asked, "Aren't you home? Why didn't I see any movement outside your window?"

I didn't know when he started standing outside my window.

Back then, I was indeed afraid of the dark. At that time, I still had him to rely on, and I shamelessly exposed my cowardice.

Now I've sent him to find Chen Yaoyao. Without him to rely on, I naturally have to learn to coexist with the darkness.

I have no reason to run to the window and call him to hurry up and come to accompany me.

He still comforts me as before, saying, "Shuyin, don't be afraid, I'll always be here."

But back then, he could quickly climb the stairs, sweat profusely, and knock on my door, holding me and comforting me.

Now he can only stop downstairs, looking around the window.

Even if I'm afraid to the point of biting my gums, I won't run to the window and tell him, "Come up."

I remember that rainy night when Chen Yaoyao was showing off.

There were lightning and thunder, and the wind and rain were intense.

It was much scarier than this night.

I wonder if Chimu Jiang rushed over with an urgent heart to comfort her.

Did he park the car and comfort her while saying, "Yaoyao, don't be afraid, I'll be there soon."

Chen Yaoyao never rejected him as decisively as I did.

Did he smoothly enter Chen Yaoyao's house all the way?

Were they celebrating a birthday inside the house, singing the birthday song and blowing out candles without any restraints?

Did Chen Yaoyao fulfill Chimu Jiang's long-cherished wish?

And what was Chimu Jiang thinking at that time?

Did he feel clever, being able to leave me and go to accompany Chen Yaoyao on an unforgettable birthday?

I hate hearing his voice. His care feels incredibly ironic to me.

I said:

"Chimu Jiang, I don't want my ex-husband anymore.

"When I made the decision to separate, I never thought of turning back.

"If you love me, just disappear completely from my world."