I still couldn't fall asleep. In order to have some peace and quiet, I shut down my phone and plugged it in to charge.

When I lay in bed, my whole body felt incredibly sore.

Ever since I discovered Chen Yaoyao's video, I've been on edge, physically tense up until now.

I spent a long time weighing the pros and cons of my relationship with Chimu Jiang.

I contemplated step by step how to withdraw from Chimu Jiang's world, to distance myself from him further and further.

On the one hand, I thought maybe I could pretend not to hear or speak, and try to forgive a little, and then forgive a little more.

But in the end, this thorn was too hard, and swallowing it meant it would bleed profusely.

I grew afraid, so I chose to let go completely.

I remembered when he asked me, after several of his friends inquired about my contact information, if he had been disturbing my life.

He earnestly invited me over the phone, "Lin Shuyin, can you come out and meet me?"

He even thought that confessing his feelings to me too suddenly would frighten me, so he only told me after we became a couple that he fell in love with me at first sight.

It happened when we were both in the same venue watching a game. Because I was good at spoken English, I helped a few foreigners communicate with the people at the venue.

He followed behind me the whole time, and I mistook him for a foreigner and spoke to him in English.

He chuckled and told me, "Miss, I'm also Chinese."

He said it with excitement on his face, but I had done too much that day, so I had no recollection of these events.

He said, "I had already guessed it. I secretly watched you many times that day, and you never noticed."

Then he held me and said with satisfaction, "It's not too late now."