I woke up from a dream, and only two hours had passed.

It was still dark outside, truly a difficult night.

I have never doubted Cheng Mujiang's love for me.

I can't even deny now that he is a qualified and excellent boyfriend.

But after discovering his secret with Chen Yaoyao, I realized that he has been not only a qualified boyfriend but also a qualified ex-husband.

I don't know if he's tired or not.

All I know is that I'm very sad.

What makes me sad is that I have started to doubt and overturn what I believed to be the romantic things between us.

When he held my hand and walked by the river, I would wonder if he had also taken Chen Yaoyao there on some later day.

The restaurant we visited multiple times and agreed to go to again when he came back.

I would wonder if he would also tell Chen Yaoyao that the restaurant is delicious and make time to take her there for a meal.

The movie we watched and both agreed was good, would he also invite Chen Yaoyao to watch it again?

Even though I couldn't find any evidence related to these things in the screenshots.

But I still feel like they just haven't happened yet.

Since there have already been one or two incidents, countless more will follow.

Cheng Mujiang may not be able to treat both of us fairly, but he is still trying his best for Chen Yaoyao.

But I am his girlfriend.

Why do I need to compare whether Cheng Mujiang does more for me or for Chen Yaoyao?

That, in itself, is sick.

I am Cheng Mujiang's girlfriend, and that is a right I should enjoy.

But Cheng Mujiang has divided himself and given a part to Chen Yaoyao.

I am even unwanted by Cheng Mujiang now.