Shen Yi said that he would be fine after taking the medicine and there was no need to go to the hospital.

He drove me home.

In the quiet car, I couldn't help but glance at his profile.

He caught me and directly exposed me, "Do you have something to ask me?"

I struggled with how to approach it and finally spoke directly, "Is your illness being treated well?"

"It can't be cured. It's a lifelong condition."

"There's no telling when the illness will strike, and I might die."

"The doctor said I might not live past thirty."

Shen Yi remained calm, speaking as casually as if discussing an ordinary matter.

But I felt heavy-hearted. At this moment, I finally understood why he had that dead calm look in his eyes when I first met him.

"My whole life, from the moment I was born, I've been waiting for death."

As Shen Yi spoke, he turned his head and smiled at me.

"So when you fought so desperately to stay alive, you stirred something in me."

"You're such a hardworking and strong girl. Compared to you, I'm really inadequate. I accepted everything fate arranged for me right from the start, without even struggling."

"Ye Xi, at least in my eyes, you're truly amazing. Do you understand?"

An unspoken emotion hidden deep in the man's eyes, and I quickly averted my gaze.

Shen Yi looked ahead, still calm and indifferent. "You don't have to feel pressured or overthink things. I just wanted to tell you my true thoughts, that's all. I'm not asking for anything from you."

Originally, I didn't think much of it, at most I was pleasantly surprised.

But hearing him say this now, I felt uneasy inside.

Doesn't Shen Yi think that his life has lost the qualification to pursue anything?

Just because he feels he could die at any moment...

I wanted to say something, opened my mouth, but in the end, nothing came out.

Looking at the rapidly retreating night scene outside the car window, flickering and fading, unable to hold on or grasp.

I myself am already in the mud, what right do I have to save others.